But not in a sad way
"I sit in a bar reading a book, I worry that I look like I’m cosplaying aloneness, the words I read are Sanskrit, they mean nothing. I order a cocktail called Prayers of the Soulless. I am cosplaying aloneness." I think about this often and you put it into words so clearly. And then I think "Well, am I cosplaying aloneness if I'm not recording myself "being alone" in a bar for Tiktok or Instagram?" and it makes it feel a little less like cosplaying, haha. I love being alone in the ways you've described, and I love the way you've written about your experience with being alone. Words are failing me a bit right now, but I sincerely appreciated this post. Such a lovely read for today. Thanks for sharing, Isabelle! ♥
I found that the time you are somewhere is not as important as the attitude you adopt when you are someone new and alone. I knew people who were in Japan for 6 months or more and wouldn't have got out of their time there what you would have experienced in two weeks.
I love this Belle! There are many ways of being alone and it’s often a powerful and unforgettable experience- good and bad. A good reminder to welcome people into our lives along the journey. Xxx
Thank you for this beautiful piece Belle !
Breathtaking! I have a feeling I'm going to be thinking about this piece for weeks at least.
You've painted so many different shades of being alone, being anonymous, the absence of relationship, and authentic/inauthentic human connection.
P.S. Love that we have found ourselves publishing on broadly the same topic on the same day.
Being alone in a new city is one of the best things I've found you can do that helps you grow and become more at peace at yourself which is always nice. I wouldn't have become who I am without experiencing two years in Japan by myself though thankfully I did make friends along the way and you already are which helps a great deal. Enjoy the experience and embrace the changes that will come with being in a new place.